if anyone is interested in seeing my weight loss documented in full, i’ve made a whole new blog for it.

please follow me, i’d really really appreciate it. this is my URL and i’ll be sure to follow you back;

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even if you don’t want to follow me, have a look and be sure to check in from time to time. that’d be fab :)

thank you thank you.

 sweet dreams; love you forever my beautiful auntie mary ♥

honestly don’t know how but i’m just going to accept it with a smile and forget about the chinese and malteasers and chicken nuggets that i ate this week and be extra extra good this week just in case the scales are lying haha.

although i have done a fair amount of exercise this week so maybe that cancelled out all the sat fat? haha idk.

so yay! 4st 3lb gone forever in a wonderous 20 weeks.

back in worcester.

one more essay and i am no longer going to be a first-year drama and performance student at the university of worcester.

this upsets me because this year has been brilliant.

i said goodbye today and it was really tough but she’s an amazing lady and i know that she’ll be making everyone laugh in heaven and she’ll be looking over each and every one of us with a smile.

thank you to everyone for your messages of support, i genuinely appreciate them :)

okay so i’ve found out that i got a cheeky 1:1 for my studies in american theatre module and this has cheered me up by approximately 67% :)

i saw my auntie this evening for about an hour and a half and although she is in a terribly bad way, she is still laughing and joking (just about) and said how amazing i look in regards to my weight loss which was lovely and according to my family, today was the first day she had a full-on conversation. i also only cried twice and not infront of her which i thought was very brave. she honestly is amazing.

oh, and i’m seeing her again tomorrow and this makes me happy.

290191 asked: That's absolutely awful, these things come out of nowhere and it's the absolute worst. Thinking of you and your family, and I hope you're okay xxx

thank you so much lovely genuinely appreciate it. i wouldn’t wish this upon anyone :) x

go from being so amazing to so shit in literally half an hour. this is the worst.

fuck you cancer you are a cunt.

okay so today and last night are officially the worst.

i found out that my auntie’s cancer is really aggressive and that instead of the 6-12 months left that i originally anticipated she had, i was told last night that she has roughly 5 days. i’m seeing her tonight.

i am now in southampton after getting an early train with carl. the bus also cost me £2.45 for a single and before i left for uni it cost £1.80.

for fucks sake. i am so so upset.